So, thanks to Ms. C., I realized I should just be patient, and not be in such a rush to move out. I had a doctor's appointment today and my doctor told me she lived at home until she was 26. That gives me three years. haha. I feel a lot more relaxed.
I guess it just felt like all my friends were working six-figure jobs in Manhattan and buying homes. At 23. Yeah, I guess I kind of felt left out. Plus I want to feel like a grown-up. Not a real-world novice. My parents are buying me all new bedroom furniture so I can make my bedroom feel like an 'apartment'. Which will be hard considering my bedroom is about 1/4 the size of a studio apartment, rough.
I love my puppy. Her name is Ily Rose [I Love You]. Cute huh? I went through multitudes of websites of doggy names. Would you believe one of the names was Buttlove? Seriously. How effed up do you have to be to name your dog that.
This Saturday is the ZZ Top concert. woooo! It's @ the Bank of America Pavilion in Boston, which me & Taylor were at just last weekend for Stevie Wonder. We're going to stop in Natick & check out the new Neiman Marcus & Louis Vuitton stores, cause I haven't been there yet. Which is surprising. I also got a coupon in the mail from Neimans for $100 off one pair of shoes. Helllll yes. Of course, the pair has to be at least $300 to get the $100 off. Sucks.
Also, I just put the $1200 for the puppy on my credit card, so I don't think I should be spending on frivolous items right now. But oh, how I love frivolity. =]
You know what my doctor told me today? That I have way too much anxiety over nothing. She said I have a pretty cushy, amazing life, I'm just too focused on what I don't have, which makes me nervous. Hrm, true. I need to chill. I am pretty damn lucky, I guess I'm just too focused on the things I consider 'crappy' parts of my life, and not cognisant of the amazing things.?
I start counseling tomorrow. I feel weird. I've never been to a counselor before. I've always been the well adjusted, smart, happy kid. Does going to counseling make me a psycho? =[ See, more worry.
Okay, my stream-of-consciousness rambling is over.
Enjoy staring at my gorgeous puppy =]
1 comment:
Your Puppy is cute....
No most people can do some good from speaking with a shrink...If I could afford it I would too. Just don't take medication....unless you really think you need too. I was taking celexa for about 1 year...went cold turkey quit it...NOT PRETTY. so they put me on something else and I weened off of that...DRUG FREE...Feels good to feel again...You know...Medication makes you mute to the world..no tears...no exsisive laughter...JUST BLAH...
yeah hell live at home if you like your folks, they are willing to let you save..then put down 50% on a home in a bit..
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